A pencil sharpener is a lot like a good hug…

A pencil sharpener is a lot like a good hug…

Getting one when you need it can make your day a thousand times better.

I don’t really get hugs – except virtual hugs from one of my best friends whenever they’re trying to cheer me up – that often, but I definitely welcome them at the moment. Virtual or not.

Every time I wake up, the first thing I hear every “morning” is news of a new death. I don’t even know how to describe it. Ever since my birthday last week, someone – or something – has died. It’s been a toss up between an animal on my porch or in my yard, or a relative I vaguely remember but still cared about. Every day has been a new heartbreak, and I’m not sure how much more of it I can handle.

I’ve wanted to cry this whole time, but I can’t. I want to, I need to, but I can’t even manage to force out the tears dancing around in my eyes. I haven’t had a good cry in a long time, which is odd for someone who use to cry at anything. Now I just feel numb to the pain.

And yet, even when I’ve come close to breaking down recently, I have some people in my life who have been there to – figuratively – catch me before I fall. They keep me up with random jokes and kind gestures – not out of pity, but out of genuine care. Even if it’s something as small as giving me a random pencil sharpener from their car just so I could use it when it’s their day off.

My heart breaks for those lost in my family, even if I only remember them from memories of when I was a little girl. My soul, however, is thankful for those around me who do anything just to put a smile on my face.

This was a gift from my great-aunt, who died yesterday from cancer. I still have this necklace, and I hope to keep it safe for a very long time.

2 thoughts on “A pencil sharpener is a lot like a good hug…

  1. My condolences for your great aunt. Last month, I lost my dog and my cat, both of whom were with me for almost 14 years. Right now, my new puppy is sitting by my side. The bittersweet dance of life.

    1. Aw, I am so sorry to hear about your dog and cat. It’s good that they lived such long lives, at least. How is the new puppy doing?

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